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Dark Lady Sonnets 127-154
127
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In the old age black was not counted fair, |
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Or if it were it
bore not beauty's name: |
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But now is black
beauty's successive heir, |
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And beauty
slandered with a bastard shame, |
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For since each
hand hath put on nature's power, |
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Fairing the foul
with art's false borrowed face, |
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Sweet beauty
hath no name no holy bower, |
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But is profaned,
if not lives in disgrace. |
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Therefore my
mistress' eyes are raven black, |
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Her eyes so
suited, and they mourners seem, |
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At such who not
born fair no beauty lack, |
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Slandering
creation with a false esteem, |
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Yet so they
mourn becoming of their woe, |
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That every
tongue says beauty should look so. |
128
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How oft when thou, my music, music play'st, |
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Upon that
blessed wood whose motion sounds |
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With thy sweet
fingers when thou gently sway'st |
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The wiry concord
that mine ear confounds, |
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Do I envy those
jacks that nimble leap, |
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To kiss the
tender inward of thy hand, |
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Whilst my poor
lips which should that harvest reap, |
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At the wood's
boldness by thee blushing stand. |
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To be so tickled
they would change their state |
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And situation
with those dancing chips, |
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O'er whom thy
fingers walk with gentle gait, |
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Making dead wood
more blest than living lips, |
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Since saucy
jacks so happy are in this, |
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Give them thy
fingers, me thy lips to kiss. |
129
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Th'
expense of spirit in a waste of shame |
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Is lust in
action, and till action, lust |
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Is perjured,
murd'rous, bloody full of blame, |
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Savage, extreme,
rude, cruel, not to trust, |
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Enjoyed no
sooner but despised straight, |
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Past reason
hunted, and no sooner had |
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Past reason
hated as a swallowed bait, |
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On purpose laid
to make the taker mad. |
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Mad in pursuit
and in possession so, |
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Had, having, and
in quest, to have extreme, |
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A bliss in proof
and proved, a very woe, |
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Before a joy
proposed behind a dream. |
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All this the
world well knows yet none knows well, |
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To shun the
heaven that leads men to this hell. |
130
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My
mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun, |
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Coral is far
more red, than her lips red, |
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If snow be
white, why then her breasts are dun: |
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If hairs be
wires, black wires grow on her head: |
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I have seen
roses damasked, red and white, |
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But no such
roses see I in her cheeks, |
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And in some
perfumes is there more delight, |
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Than in the
breath that from my mistress reeks. |
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I love to hear
her speak, yet well I know, |
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That music hath
a far more pleasing sound: |
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I grant I never
saw a goddess go, |
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My mistress when
she walks treads on the ground. |
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And yet by
heaven I think my love as rare, |
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As any she
belied with false compare. |
131
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Thou art as tyrannous, so as thou art, |
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As those whose
beauties proudly make them cruel; |
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For well thou
know'st to my dear doting heart |
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Thou art the
fairest and most precious jewel. |
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Yet in good
faith some say that thee behold, |
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Thy face hath
not the power to make love groan; |
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To say they err,
I dare not be so bold, |
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Although I swear
it to my self alone. |
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And to be sure
that is not false I swear, |
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A thousand
groans but thinking on thy face, |
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One on another's
neck do witness bear |
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Thy black is
fairest in my judgment's place. |
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In nothing art
thou black save in thy deeds, |
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And thence
this slander as I think proceeds. |
132
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Thine eyes I love, and they as pitying me, |
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Knowing thy
heart torment me with disdain, |
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Have put on
black, and loving mourners be, |
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Looking with
pretty ruth upon my pain. |
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And truly not
the morning sun of heaven |
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Better becomes
the grey cheeks of the east, |
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Nor that full
star that ushers in the even |
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Doth half that
glory to the sober west |
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As those two
mourning eyes become thy face: |
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O let it then as
well beseem thy heart |
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To mourn for me
since mourning doth thee grace, |
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And suit thy
pity like in every part. |
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Then will I
swear beauty herself is black, |
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And all they
foul that thy complexion lack. |
133
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Beshrew that heart that makes my heart to groan |
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For that deep
wound it gives my friend and me; |
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Is't not enough
to torture me alone, |
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But slave to
slavery my sweet'st friend must be? |
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Me from my self
thy cruel eye hath taken, |
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And my next self
thou harder hast engrossed, |
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Of him, my self,
and thee I am forsaken, |
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A torment thrice
three-fold thus to be crossed: |
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Prison my heart
in thy steel bosom's ward, |
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But then my
friend's heart let my poor heart bail, |
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Whoe'er keeps
me, let my heart be his guard, |
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Thou canst not
then use rigour in my gaol. |
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And yet thou
wilt, for I being pent in thee, |
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Perforce am
thine and all that is in me. |
134
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So
now I have confessed that he is thine, |
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And I my self am
mortgaged to thy will, |
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My self I'll
forfeit, so that other mine, |
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Thou wilt
restore to be my comfort still: |
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But thou wilt
not, nor he will not be free, |
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For thou art
covetous, and he is kind, |
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He learned but
surety-like to write for me, |
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Under that bond
that him as fist doth bind. |
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The statute of
thy beauty thou wilt take, |
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Thou usurer that
put'st forth all to use, |
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And sue a
friend, came debtor for my sake, |
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So him I lose
through my unkind abuse. |
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Him have I
lost, thou hast both him and me, |
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He pays the
whole, and yet am I not free. |
135
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Whoever hath her wish, thou hast thy will, |
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And 'Will' to
boot, and 'Will' in over-plus, |
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More than enough
am I that vex thee still, |
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To thy sweet
will making addition thus. |
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Wilt thou whose
will is large and spacious, |
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Not once
vouchsafe to hide my will in thine? |
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Shall will in
others seem right gracious, |
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And in my will
no fair acceptance shine? |
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The sea all
water, yet receives rain still, |
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And in abundance
addeth to his store, |
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So thou being
rich in will add to thy will |
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One will of mine
to make thy large will more. |
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Let no unkind,
no fair beseechers kill, |
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Think all but
one, and me in that one 'Will.' |
136
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If
thy soul check thee that I come so near, |
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Swear to thy
blind soul that I was thy 'Will', |
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And will thy
soul knows is admitted there, |
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Thus far for
love, my love-suit sweet fulfil. |
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'Will', will
fulfil the treasure of thy love, |
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Ay, fill it full
with wills, and my will one, |
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In things of
great receipt with case we prove, |
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Among a number
one is reckoned none. |
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Then in the
number let me pass untold, |
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Though in thy
store's account I one must be, |
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For nothing hold
me, so it please thee hold, |
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That nothing me,
a something sweet to thee. |
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Make but my
name thy love, and love that still, |
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And then thou
lov'st me for my name is Will. |
137
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Thou blind fool Love, what dost thou to mine eyes, |
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That they behold
and see not what they see? |
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They know what
beauty is, see where it lies, |
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Yet what the
best is, take the worst to be. |
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If eyes corrupt
by over-partial looks, |
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Be anchored in
the bay where all men ride, |
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Why of eyes'
falsehood hast thou forged hooks, |
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Whereto the
judgment of my heart is tied? |
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Why should my
heart think that a several plot, |
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Which my heart
knows the wide world's common place? |
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Or mine eyes
seeing this, say this is not |
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To put fair
truth upon so foul a face? |
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In things
right true my heart and eyes have erred, |
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And to this
false plague are they now transferred. |
138
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When my love swears that she is made of truth, |
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I do believe her
though I know she lies, |
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That she might
think me some untutored youth, |
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Unlearned in the
world's false subtleties. |
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Thus vainly
thinking that she thinks me young, |
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Although she
knows my days are past the best, |
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Simply I credit
her false-speaking tongue, |
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On both sides
thus is simple truth suppressed: |
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But wherefore
says she not she is unjust? |
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And wherefore
say not I that I am old? |
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O love's best
habit is in seeming trust, |
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And age in love,
loves not to have years told. |
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Therefore I
lie with her, and she with me, |
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And in our
faults by lies we flattered be. |
139
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O
call not me to justify the wrong, |
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That thy
unkindness lays upon my heart, |
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Wound me not
with thine eye but with thy tongue, |
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Use power with
power, and slay me not by art, |
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Tell me thou
lov'st elsewhere; but in my sight, |
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Dear heart
forbear to glance thine eye aside, |
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What need'st
thou wound with cunning when thy might |
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Is more than my
o'erpressed defence can bide? |
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Let me excuse
thee, ah my love well knows, |
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Her pretty looks
have been mine enemies, |
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And therefore
from my face she turns my foes, |
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That they
elsewhere might dart their injuries: |
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Yet do not so,
but since I am near slain, |
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Kill me
outright with looks, and rid my pain. |
140
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Be
wise as thou art cruel, do not press |
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My tongue-tied
patience with too much disdain: |
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Lest sorrow lend
me words and words express, |
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The manner of my
pity-wanting pain. |
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If I might teach
thee wit better it were, |
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Though not to
love, yet love to tell me so, |
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As testy sick
men when their deaths be near, |
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No news but
health from their physicians know. |
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For if I should
despair I should grow mad, |
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And in my
madness might speak ill of thee, |
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Now this
ill-wresting world is grown so bad, |
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Mad slanderers
by mad ears believed be. |
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That I may not
be so, nor thou belied, |
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Bear thine
eyes straight, though thy proud heart go wide. |
141
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In
faith I do not love thee with mine eyes, |
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For they in thee
a thousand errors note, |
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But 'tis my
heart that loves what they despise, |
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Who in despite
of view is pleased to dote. |
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Nor are mine
cars with thy tongue's tune delighted, |
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Nor tender
feeling to base touches prone, |
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Nor taste, nor
smell, desire to be invited |
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To any sensual
feast with thee alone: |
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But my five
wits, nor my five senses can |
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Dissuade one
foolish heart from serving thee, |
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Who leaves
unswayed the likeness of a man, |
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Thy proud
heart's slave and vassal wretch to be: |
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Only my plague
thus far I count my gain, |
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That she that
makes me sin, awards me pain. |
142
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Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate, |
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Hate of my sin,
grounded on sinful loving, |
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O but with mine,
compare thou thine own state, |
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And thou shalt
find it merits not reproving, |
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Or if it do, not
from those lips of thine, |
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That have
profaned their scarlet ornaments, |
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And sealed false
bonds of love as oft as mine, |
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Robbed others'
beds' revenues of their rents. |
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Be it lawful I
love thee as thou lov'st those, |
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Whom thine eyes
woo as mine importune thee, |
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Root pity in thy
heart that when it grows, |
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Thy pity may
deserve to pitied be. |
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If thou dost
seek to have what thou dost hide, |
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By
self-example mayst thou be denied. |
143
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Lo
as a careful huswife runs to catch, |
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One of her
feathered creatures broke away, |
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Sets down her
babe and makes all swift dispatch |
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In pursuit of
the thing she would have stay: |
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Whilst her
neglected child holds her in chase, |
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Cries to catch
her whose busy care is bent, |
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To follow that
which flies before her face: |
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Not prizing her
poor infant's discontent; |
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So run'st thou
after that which flies from thee, |
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Whilst I thy
babe chase thee afar behind, |
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But if thou
catch thy hope turn back to me: |
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And play the
mother's part, kiss me, be kind. |
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So will I pray
that thou mayst have thy Will, |
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If thou turn
back and my loud crying still. |
144
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Two loves I have of comfort and despair, |
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Which like two
spirits do suggest me still, |
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The better angel
is a man right fair: |
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The worser
spirit a woman coloured ill. |
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To win me soon
to hell my female evil, |
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Tempteth my
better angel from my side, |
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And would
corrupt my saint to be a devil: |
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Wooing his
purity with her foul pride. |
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And whether that
my angel be turned fiend, |
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Suspect I may,
yet not directly tell, |
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But being both
from me both to each friend, |
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I guess one
angel in another's hell. |
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Yet this shall
I ne'er know but live in doubt, |
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Till my bad
angel fire my good one out. |
145
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Those lips that Love's own hand did make, |
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Breathed forth
the sound that said 'I hate', |
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To me that
languished for her sake: |
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But when she saw
my woeful state, |
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Straight in her
heart did mercy come, |
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Chiding that
tongue that ever sweet, |
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Was used in
giving gentle doom: |
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And taught it
thus anew to greet: |
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'I hate' she
altered with an end, |
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That followed it
as gentle day, |
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Doth follow
night who like a fiend |
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From heaven to
hell is flown away. |
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'I hate', from
hate away she threw, |
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And saved my
life saying 'not you'. |
146
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Poor soul the centre of my sinful earth, |
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My sinful earth
these rebel powers array, |
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Why dost thou
pine within and suffer dearth |
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Painting thy
outward walls so costly gay? |
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Why so large
cost having so short a lease, |
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Dost thou upon
thy fading mansion spend? |
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Shall worms
inheritors of this excess |
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Eat up thy
charge? is this thy body's end? |
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Then soul live
thou upon thy servant's loss, |
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And let that
pine to aggravate thy store; |
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Buy terms divine
in selling hours of dross; |
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Within be fed,
without be rich no more, |
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So shall thou
feed on death, that feeds on men, |
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And death once
dead, there's no more dying then. |
147
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My
love is as a fever longing still, |
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For that which
longer nurseth the disease, |
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Feeding on that
which doth preserve the ill, |
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Th' uncertain
sickly appetite to please: |
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My reason the
physician to my love, |
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Angry that his
prescriptions are not kept |
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Hath left me,
and I desperate now approve, |
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Desire is death,
which physic did except. |
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Past cure I am,
now reason is past care, |
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And frantic-mad
with evermore unrest, |
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My thoughts and
my discourse as mad men's are, |
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At random from
the truth vainly expressed. |
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For I have
sworn thee fair, and thought thee bright, |
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Who art as
black as hell, as dark as night. |
148
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O
me! what eyes hath love put in my head, |
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Which have no
correspondence with true sight, |
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Or if they have,
where is my judgment fled, |
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That censures
falsely what they see aright? |
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If that be fair
whereon my false eyes dote, |
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What means the
world to say it is not so? |
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If it be not,
then love doth well denote, |
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Love's eye is
not so true as all men's: no, |
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How can it? O
how can love's eye be true, |
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That is so vexed
with watching and with tears? |
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No marvel then
though I mistake my view, |
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The sun it self
sees not, till heaven clears. |
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O cunning
love, with tears thou keep'st me blind, |
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Lest eyes
well-seeing thy foul faults should find. |
149
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Canst thou O cruel, say I love thee not, |
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When I against
my self with thee partake? |
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Do I not think
on thee when I forgot |
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Am of my self,
all-tyrant, for thy sake? |
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Who hateth thee
that I do call my friend, |
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On whom frown'st
thou that I do fawn upon, |
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Nay if thou
lour'st on me do I not spend |
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Revenge upon my
self with present moan? |
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What merit do I
in my self respect, |
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That is so proud
thy service to despise, |
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When all my best
doth worship thy defect, |
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Commanded by the
motion of thine eyes? |
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But love hate
on for now I know thy mind, |
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Those that can
see thou lov'st, and I am blind. |
150
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O
from what power hast thou this powerful might, |
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With
insufficiency my heart to sway, |
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To make me give
the lie to my true sight, |
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And swear that
brightness doth not grace the day? |
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Whence hast thou
this becoming of things ill, |
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That in the very
refuse of thy deeds, |
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There is such
strength and warrantise of skill, |
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That in my mind
thy worst all best exceeds? |
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Who taught thee
how to make me love thee more, |
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The more I hear
and see just cause of hate? |
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O though I love
what others do abhor, |
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With others thou
shouldst not abhor my state. |
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If thy
unworthiness raised love in me, |
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More worthy I
to be beloved of thee. |
151
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Love is too young to know what conscience is, |
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Yet who knows
not conscience is born of love? |
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Then gentle
cheater urge not my amiss, |
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Lest guilty of
my faults thy sweet self prove. |
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For thou
betraying me, I do betray |
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My nobler part
to my gross body's treason, |
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My soul doth
tell my body that he may, |
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Triumph in love,
flesh stays no farther reason, |
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But rising at
thy name doth point out thee, |
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As his
triumphant prize, proud of this pride, |
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He is contented
thy poor drudge to be, |
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To stand in thy
affairs, fall by thy side. |
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No want of
conscience hold it that I call, |
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Her love, for
whose dear love I rise and fall. |
152
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In
loving thee thou know'st I am forsworn, |
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But thou art
twice forsworn to me love swearing, |
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In act thy
bed-vow broke and new faith torn, |
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In vowing new
hate after new love bearing: |
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But why of two
oaths' breach do I accuse thee, |
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When I break
twenty? I am perjured most, |
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For all my vows
are oaths but to misuse thee: |
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And all my
honest faith in thee is lost. |
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For I have sworn
deep oaths of thy deep kindness: |
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Oaths of thy
love, thy truth, thy constancy, |
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And to enlighten
thee gave eyes to blindness, |
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Or made them
swear against the thing they see. |
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For I have
sworn thee fair: more perjured I, |
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To swear
against the truth so foul a be. |
153
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Cupid laid by his brand and fell asleep, |
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A maid of Dian's
this advantage found, |
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And his
love-kindling fire did quickly steep |
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In a cold
valley-fountain of that ground: |
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Which borrowed
from this holy fire of Love, |
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A dateless
lively heat still to endure, |
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And grew a
seeting bath which yet men prove, |
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Against strange
maladies a sovereign cure: |
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But at my
mistress' eye Love's brand new-fired, |
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The boy for
trial needs would touch my breast, |
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I sick withal
the help of bath desired, |
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And thither hied
a sad distempered guest. |
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But found no
cure, the bath for my help lies, |
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Where Cupid
got new fire; my mistress' eyes. |
154
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The little Love-god lying once asleep, |
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Laid by his side
his heart-inflaming brand, |
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Whilst many
nymphs that vowed chaste life to keep, |
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Came tripping
by, but in her maiden hand, |
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The fairest
votary took up that fire, |
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Which many
legions of true hearts had warmed, |
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And so the
general of hot desire, |
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Was sleeping by
a virgin hand disarmed. |
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This brand she
quenched in a cool well by, |
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Which from
Love's fire took heat perpetual, |
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Growing a bath
and healthful remedy | |