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87
Farewell! thou art too dear for my possessing, |
And like enough
thou know'st thy estimate, |
The charter of
thy worth gives thee releasing: |
My bonds in thee
are all determinate. |
For how do I
hold thee but by thy granting, |
And for that
riches where is my deserving? |
The cause of
this fair gift in me is wanting, |
And so my patent
back again is swerving. |
Thy self thou
gav'st, thy own worth then not knowing, |
Or me to whom
thou gav'st it, else mistaking, |
So thy great
gift upon misprision growing, |
Comes home
again, on better judgement making. |
Thus have I
had thee as a dream doth flatter, |
In sleep a
king, but waking no such matter. |
88
When thou shalt be disposed to set me light, |
And place my
merit in the eye of scorn, |
Upon thy side,
against my self I'll fight, |
And prove thee
virtuous, though thou art forsworn: |
With mine own
weakness being best acquainted, |
Upon thy part I
can set down a story |
Of faults
concealed, wherein I am attainted: |
That thou in
losing me, shalt win much glory: |
And I by this
will be a gainer too, |
For bending all
my loving thoughts on thee, |
The injuries
that to my self I do, |
Doing thee
vantage, double-vantage me. |
Such is my
love, to thee I so belong, |
That for thy
right, my self will bear all wrong. |
89
Say that thou didst forsake me for some fault, |
And I will
comment upon that offence, |
Speak of my
lameness, and I straight will halt: |
Against thy
reasons making no defence. |
Thou canst not
(love) disgrace me half so ill, |
To set a form
upon desired change, |
As I'll my self
disgrace, knowing thy will, |
I will
acquaintance strangle and look strange: |
Be absent from
thy walks and in my tongue, |
Thy sweet
beloved name no more shall dwell, |
Lest I (too much
profane) should do it wronk: |
And haply of our
old acquaintance tell. |
For thee,
against my self I'll vow debate, |
For I must
ne'er love him whom thou dost hate. |
90
Then hate me when thou wilt, if ever, now, |
Now while the
world is bent my deeds to cross, |
join with the
spite of fortune, make me bow, |
And do not drop
in for an after-loss: |
Ah do not, when
my heart hath 'scaped this sorrow, |
Come in the
rearward of a conquered woe, |
Give not a windy
night a rainy morrow, |
To linger out a
purposed overthrow. |
If thou wilt
leave me, do not leave me last, |
When other petty
griefs have done their spite, |
But in the onset
come, so shall I taste |
At first the
very worst of fortune's might. |
And other
strains of woe, which now seem woe, |
Compared with
loss of thee, will not seem so. |
91
Some glory in their birth, some in their skill, |
Some in their
wealth, some in their body's force, |
Some in their
garments though new-fangled ill: |
Some in their
hawks and hounds, some in their horse. |
And every humour
hath his adjunct pleasure, |
Wherein it finds
a joy above the rest, |
But these
particulars are not my measure, |
All these I
better in one general best. |
Thy love is
better than high birth to me, |
Richer than
wealth, prouder than garments' costs, |
Of more delight
than hawks and horses be: |
And having thee,
of all men's pride I boast. |
Wretched in
this alone, that thou mayst take, |
All this away,
and me most wretchcd make. |
92
But do thy worst to steal thy self away, |
For term of life
thou art assured mine, |
And life no
longer than thy love will stay, |
For it depends
upon that love of thine. |
Then need I not
to fear the worst of wrongs, |
When in the
least of them my life hath end, |
I see, a better
state to me belongs |
Than that, which
on thy humour doth depend. |
Thou canst not
vex me with inconstant mind, |
Since that my
life on thy revolt doth lie, |
O what a happy
title do I find, |
Happy to have
thy love, happy to die! |
But what's so
blessed-fair that fears no blot? |
Thou mayst be
false, and yet I know it not. |
93
So
shall I live, supposing thou art true, |
Like a deceived
husband, so love's face, |
May still seem
love to me, though altered new: |
Thy looks with
me, thy heart in other place. |
For there can
live no hatred in thine eye, |
Therefore in
that I cannot know thy change, |
In many's looks,
the false heart's history |
Is writ in moods
and frowns and wrinkles strange. |
But heaven in
thy creation did decree, |
That in thy face
sweet love should ever dwell, |
Whate'er thy
thoughts, or thy heart's workings be, |
Thy looks should
nothing thence, but sweetness tell. |
How like Eve's
apple doth thy beauty grow, |
If thy sweet
virtue answer not thy show. |
94
They that have power to hurt, and will do none, |
That do not do
the thing, they most do show, |
Who moving
others, are themselves as stone, |
Unmoved, cold,
and to temptation slow: |
They rightly do
inherit heaven's graces, |
And husband
nature's riches from expense, |
Tibey are the
lords and owners of their faces, |
Others, but
stewards of their excellence: |
The summer's
flower is to the summer sweet, |
Though to it
self, it only live and die, |
But if that
flower with base infection meet, |
The basest weed
outbraves his dignity: |
For sweetest
things turn sourest by their deeds, |
Lilies that
fester, smell far worse than weeds. |
95
How sweet and lovely dost thou make the shame, |
Which like a
canker in the fragrant rose, |
Doth spot the
beauty of thy budding name! |
O in what sweets
dost thou thy sins enclose! |
That tongue that
tells the story of thy days, |
(Making
lascivious comments on thy sport) |
Cannot
dispraise, but in a kind of praise, |
Naming thy name,
blesses an ill report. |
O what a mansion
have those vices got, |
Which for their
habitation chose out thee, |
Where beauty's
veil doth cover every blot, |
And all things
turns to fair, that eyes can see! |
Take heed
(dear heart) of this large privilege, |
The hardest
knife ill-used doth lose his edge. |
96
Some say thy fault is youth, some wantonness, |
Some say thy
grace is youth and gentle sport, |
Both grace and
faults are loved of more and less: |
Thou mak'st
faults graces, that to thee resort: |
As on the finger
of a throned queen, |
The basest jewel
will be well esteemed: |
So are those
errors that in thee are seen, |
To truths
translated, and for true things deemed. |
How many lambs
might the stern wolf betray, |
If like a lamb
he could his looks translate! |
How many gazers
mightst thou lead away, |
if thou wouldst
use the strength of all thy state! |
But do not so,
I love thee in such sort, |
As thou being
mine, mine is thy good report. |
97
How like a winter hath my absence been |
From thee, the
pleasure of the fleeting year! |
What freezings
have I felt, what dark days seen! |
What old
December's bareness everywhere! |
And yet this
time removed was summer's time, |
The teeming
autumn big with rich increase, |
Bearing the
wanton burden of the prime, |
Like widowed
wombs after their lords' decease: |
Yet this
abundant issue seemed to me |
But hope of
orphans, and unfathered fruit, |
For summer and
his pleasures wait on thee, |
And thou away,
the very birds are mute. |
Or if they
sing, 'tis with so dull a cheer, |
That leaves
look pale, dreading the winter's near. |
98
From you have I been absent in the spring, |
When proud-pied
April (dressed in all his trim) |
Hath put a
spirit of youth in every thing: |
That heavy
Saturn laughed and leaped with him. |
Yet nor the lays
of birds, nor the sweet smell |
Of different
flowers in odour and in hue, |
Could make me
any summer's story tell: |
Or from their
proud lap pluck them where they grew: |
Nor did I wonder
at the lily's white, |
Nor praise the
deep vermilion in the rose, |
They were but
sweet, but figures of delight: |
Drawn after you,
you pattern of all those. |
Yet seemed it
winter still, and you away, |
As with your
shadow I with these did play. |
99
The forward violet thus did I chide, |
Sweet thief,
whence didst thou steal thy sweet that smells, |
If not from my
love's breath? The purple pride |
Which on thy
soft check for complexion dwells, |
In my love's
veins thou hast too grossly dyed. |
The lily I
condemned for thy hand, |
And buds of
marjoram had stol'n thy hair, |
The roses
fearfully on thorns did stand, |
One blushing
shame, another white despair: |
A third nor red,
nor white, had stol'n of both, |
And to his
robbery had annexed thy breath, |
But for his
theft in pride of all his growth |
A vengeful
canker eat him up to death. |
More flowers I
noted, yet I none could see, |
But sweet, or
colour it had stol'n from thee. |
100
Where art thou Muse that
thou forget'st so long, |
To speak of that
which gives thee all thy might? |
Spend'st thou
thy fury on some worthless song, |
Darkening thy
power to lend base subjects light? |
Return forgetful
Muse, and straight redeem, |
In gentle
numbers time so idly spent, |
Sing to the ear
that doth thy lays esteem, |
And gives thy
pen both skill and argument. |
Rise resty Muse,
my love's sweet face survey, |
If time have any
wrinkle graven there, |
If any, be a
satire to decay, |
And make time's
spoils despised everywhere. |
Give my love
fame faster than Time wastes life, |
So thou
prevent'st his scythe, and crooked knife. |
101
O truant Muse what shall
be thy amends, |
For
thy neglect of truth in beauty dyed? |
Both truth and beauty on my love depends: |
So
dost thou too, and therein dignified: |
Make answer Muse, wilt thou not haply say, |
'Truth needs no colour with his colour fixed, |
Beauty no pencil, beauty's truth to lay: |
But
best is best, if never intermixed'? |
Because he needs no praise, wilt thou be dumb? |
Excuse not silence so, for't lies in thee, |
To
make him much outlive a gilded tomb: |
And
to be praised of ages yet to be. |
Then do thy office Muse, I teach thee how, |
To make him seem long hence, as he shows now. |
102
My
love is strengthened though more weak in seeming, |
I love not less,
though less the show appear, |
That love is
merchandized, whose rich esteeming, |
The owner's
tongue doth publish every where. |
Our love was
new, and then but in the spring, |
When I was wont
to greet it with my lays, |
As Philomel in
summer's front doth sing, |
And stops her
pipe in growth of riper days: |
Not that the
summer is less pleasant now |
Than when her
mournful hymns did hush the night, |
But that wild
music burthens every bough, |
And sweets grown
common lose their dear delight. |
Therefore like
her, I sometime hold my tongue: |
Because I
would not dull you with my song. |
103
Alack what poverty my muse
brings forth, |
That having such
a scope to show her pride, |
The argument all
bare is of more worth |
Than when it
hath my added praise beside. |
O blame me not
if I no more can write! |
Look in your
glass and there appears a face, |
That over-goes
my blunt invention quite, |
Dulling my
lines, and doing me disgrace. |
Were it not
sinful then striving to mend, |
To mar the
subject that before was well? |
For to no other
pass my verses tend, |
Than of your
graces and your gifts to tell. |
And more, much
more than in my verse can sit, |
Your own glass
shows you, when you look in it. |
104
To
me fair friend you never can be old, |
For as you were
when first your eye I eyed, |
Such seems your
beauty still: three winters cold, |
Have from the
forests shook three summers' pride, |
Three beauteous
springs to yellow autumn turned, |
In process of
the seasons have I seen, |
Three April
perfumes in three hot Junes burned, |
Since first I
saw you fresh which yet are green. |
Ah yet doth
beauty like a dial hand, |
Steal from his
figure, and no pace perceived, |
So your sweet
hue, which methinks still doth stand |
Hath motion, and
mine eye may be deceived. |
For fear of
which, hear this thou age unbred, |
Ere you were
born was beauty's summer dead. |
105
Let not my love be called idolatry, |
Nor my beloved
as an idol show, |
Since all alike
my songs and praises be |
To one, of one,
still such, and ever so. |
Kind is my love
to-day, to-morrow kind, |
Still constant
in a wondrous excellence, |
Therefore my
verse to constancy confined, |
One thing
expressing, leaves out difference. |
Fair, kind, and
true, is all my argument, |
Fair, kind, and
true, varying to other words, |
And in this
change is my invention spent, |
Three themes in
one, which wondrous scope affords. |
Fair, kind,
and true, have often lived alone. |
Which three
till now, never kept seat in one. |
106
When in the chronicle of wasted time, |
I see
descriptions of the fairest wights, |
And beauty
making beautiful old rhyme, |
In praise of
ladies dead, and lovely knights, |
Then in the
blazon of sweet beauty's best, |
Of hand, of
foot, of lip, of eye, of brow, |
I see their
antique pen would have expressed, |
Even such a
beauty as you master now. |
So all their
praises are but prophecies |
Of this our
time, all you prefiguring, |
And for they
looked but with divining eyes, |
They had not
skill enough your worth to sing: |
For we which
now behold these present days, |
Have eyes to
wonder, but lack tongues to praise. |
107
Not mine own fears, nor the prophetic soul, |
Of the wide
world, dreaming on things to come, |
Can yet the
lease of my true love control, |
Supposed as
forfeit to a confined doom. |
The mortal moon
hath her eclipse endured, |
And the sad
augurs mock their own presage, |
Incertainties
now crown themselves assured, |
And peace
proclaims olives of endless age. |
Now with the
drops of this most balmy time, |
My love looks
fresh, and death to me subscribes, |
Since spite of
him I'll live in this poor rhyme, |
While he insults
o'er dull and speechless tribes. |
And thou in
this shalt find thy monument, |
When tyrants'
crests and tombs of brass are spent. |
108
What's in the brain that ink may character, |
Which hath not
figured to thee my true spirit, |
What's new to
speak, what now to register, |
That may express
my love, or thy dear merit? |
Nothing sweet
boy, but yet like prayers divine, |
I must each day
say o'er the very same, |
Counting no old
thing old, thou mine, I thine, |
Even as when
first I hallowed thy fair name. |
So that eternal
love in love's fresh case, |
Weighs not the
dust and injury of age, |
Nor gives to
necessary wrinkles place, |
But makes
antiquity for aye his page, |
Finding the
first conceit of love there bred, |
Where time and
outward form would show it dead. |
109
O
never say that I was false of heart, |
Though absence
seemed my flame to qualify, |
As easy might I
from my self depart, |
As from my soul
which in thy breast doth lie: |
That is my home
of love, if I have ranged, |
Like him that
travels I return again, |
Just to the
time, not with the time exchanged, |
So that my self
bring water for my stain, |
Never believe
though in my nature reigned, |
All frailties
that besiege all kinds of blood, |
That it could so
preposterously be stained, |
To leave for
nothing all thy sum of good: |
For nothing
this wide universe I call, |
Save thou my
rose, in it thou art my all. |
110
Alas 'tis true, I have gone here and there, |
And made my self
a motley to the view, |
Gored mine own
thoughts, sold cheap what is most dear, |
Made old
offences of affections new. |
Most true it is,
that I have looked on truth |
Askance and
strangely: but by all above, |
These blenches
gave my heart another youth, |
And worse essays
proved thee my best of love. |
Now all is done,
have what shall have no end, |
Mine appetite I
never more will grind |
On newer proof,
to try an older friend, |
A god in love,
to whom I am confined. |
Then give me
welcome, next my heaven the best, |
Even to thy
pure and most most loving breast. |
111
O
for my sake do you with Fortune chide, |
The guilty
goddess of my harmful deeds, |
That did not
better for my life provide, |
Than public
means which public manners breeds. |
Thence comes it
that my name receives a brand, |
And almost
thence my nature is subdued |
To what it works
in, like the dyer's hand: |
Pity me then,
and wish I were renewed, |
Whilst like a
willing patient I will drink, |
Potions of eisel
'gainst my strong infection, |
No bitterness
that I will bitter think, |
Nor double
penance to correct correction. |
Pity me then
dear friend, and I assure ye, |
Even that your
pity is enough to cure me. |
112
Your love and pity doth th' impression fill, |
Which vulgar
scandal stamped upon my brow, |
For what care I
who calls me well or ill, |
So you
o'er-green my bad, my good allow? |
You are my all
the world, and I must strive, |
To know my
shames and praises from your tongue, |
None else to me,
nor I to none alive, |
That my steeled
sense or changes right or wrong. |
In so profound
abysm I throw all care |
Of others'
voices, that my adder's sense, |
To critic and to
flatterer stopped are: |
Mark how with my
neglect I do dispense. |
You are so
strongly in my purpose bred, |
That all the
world besides methinks are dead. |
113
Since I left you, mine eye is in my mind, |
And that which
governs me to go about, |
Doth part his
function, and is partly blind, |
Seems seeing,
but effectually is out: |
For it no form
delivers to the heart |
Of bird, of
flower, or shape which it doth latch, |
Of his quick
objects hath the mind no part, |
Nor his own
vision holds what it doth catch: |
For if it see
the rud'st or gentlest sight, |
The most sweet
favour or deformed'st creature, |
The mountain, or
the sea, the day, or night: |
The crow, or
dove, it shapes them to your feature. |
Incapable of
more, replete with you, |
My most true
mind thus maketh mine untrue. |
114
Or
whether doth my mind being crowned with you |
Drink up the
monarch's plague this flattery? |
Or whether shall
I say mine eye saith true, |
And that your
love taught it this alchemy? |
To make of
monsters, and things indigest, |
Such cherubins
as your sweet self resemble, |
Creating every
bad a perfect best |
As fast as
objects to his beams assemble: |
O 'tis the
first, 'tis flattery in my seeing, |
And my great
mind most kingly drinks it up, |
Mine eye well
knows what with his gust is 'greeing, |
And to his
palate doth prepare the cup. |
If it be
poisoned, 'tis the lesser sin, |
That mine eye
loves it and doth first begin. |
115
Those lines that I before have writ do lie, |
Even those that
said I could not love you dearer, |
Yet then my
judgment knew no reason why, |
My most full
flame should afterwards burn clearer, |
But reckoning
time, whose millioned accidents |
Creep in 'twixt
vows, and change decrees of kings, |
Tan sacred
beauty, blunt the sharp'st intents, |
Divert strong
minds to the course of alt'ring things: |
Alas why fearing
of time's tyranny, |
Might I not then
say 'Now I love you best,' |
When I was
certain o'er incertainty, |
Crowning the
present, doubting of the rest? |
Love is a
babe, then might I not say so |
To give full
growth to that which still doth grow. |
116
Let me not to the marriage of true minds |
Admit
impediments, love is not love |
Which alters
when it alteration finds, |
Or bends with
the remover to remove. |
O no, it is an
ever-fixed mark |
That looks on
tempests and is never shaken; |
It is the star
to every wand'ring bark, |
Whose worth's
unknown, although his height be taken. |
Love's not
Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks |
Within his
bending sickle's compass come, |
Love alters not
with his brief hours and weeks, |
But bears it out
even to the edge of doom: |
If this be
error and upon me proved, |
I never writ,
nor no man ever loved. |
117
Accuse me thus, that I have scanted all, |
Wherein I should
your great deserts repay, |
Forgot upon your
dearest love to call, |
Whereto all
bonds do tie me day by day, |
That I have
frequent been with unknown minds, |
And given to
time your own dear-purchased right, |
That I have
hoisted sail to all the winds |
Which should
transport me farthest from your sight. |
Book both my
wilfulness and errors down, |
And on just
proof surmise, accumulate, |
Bring me within
the level of your frown, |
But shoot not at
me in your wakened hate: |
Since my
appeal says I did strive to prove |
The constancy
and virtue of your love. |
118
Like as to make our appetite more keen |
With eager
compounds we our palate urge, |
As to prevent
our maladies unseen, |
We sicken to
shun sickness when we purge. |
Even so being
full of your ne'er-cloying sweetness, |
To bitter sauces
did I frame my feeding; |
And sick of
welfare found a kind of meetness, |
To be diseased
ere that there was true needing. |
Thus policy in
love t' anticipate |
The ills that
were not, grew to faults assured, |
And brought to
medicine a healthful state |
Which rank of
goodness would by ill be cured. |
But thence I
learn and find the lesson true, |
Drugs poison
him that so feil sick of you. |
119
What potions have I drunk of Siren tears |
Distilled from
limbecks foul as hell within, |
Applying fears
to hopes, and hopes to fears, |
Still losing
when I saw my self to win! |
What wretched
errors hath my heart committed, |
Whilst it hath
thought it self so blessed never! |
How have mine
eyes out of their spheres been fitted |
In the
distraction of this madding fever! |
O benefit of
ill, now I find true |
That better is,
by evil still made better. |
And ruined love
when it is built anew |
Grows fairer
than at first, more strong, far greater. |
So I return
rebuked to my content, |
And gain by
ills thrice more than I have spent. |
120
That you were once unkind befriends me now, |
And for that
sorrow, which I then did feel, |
Needs must I
under my transgression bow, |
Unless my nerves
were brass or hammered steel. |
For if you were
by my unkindness shaken |
As I by yours,
y'have passed a hell of time, |
And I a tyrant
have no leisure taken |
To weigh how
once I suffered in your crime. |
O that our night
of woe might have remembered |
My deepest
sense, how hard true sorrow hits, |
And soon to you,
as you to me then tendered |
The humble
salve, which wounded bosoms fits! |
But that your
trespass now becomes a fee, |
Mine ransoms
yours, and yours must ransom me. |
121
'Tis
better to be vile than vile esteemed, |
When not to be,
receives reproach of being, |
And the just
pleasure lost, which is so deemed, |
Not by our
feeling, but by others' seeing. |
For why should
others' false adulterate eyes |
Give salutation
to my sportive blood? |
Or on my
frailties why are frailer spies, |
Which in their
wills count bad what I think good? |
No, I am that I
am, and they that level |
At my abuses,
reckon up their own, |
I may be
straight though they themselves be bevel; |
By their rank
thoughts, my deeds must not be shown |
Unless this
general evil they maintain, |
All men are
bad and in their badness reign. |
122
Thy gift, thy tables, are within my brain |
Full charactered
with lasting memory, |
Which shall
above that idle rank remain |
Beyond all date
even to eternity. |
Or at the least,
so long as brain and heart |
Have faculty by
nature to subsist, |
Till each to
razed oblivion yield his part |
Of thee, thy
record never can be missed: |
That poor
retention could not so much hold, |
Nor need I
tallies thy dear love to score, |
Therefore to
give them from me was I bold, |
To trust those
tables that receive thee more: |
To keep an
adjunct to remember thee |
Were to import
forgetfulness in me. |
123
No! Time, thou shalt not boast that I do change, |
Thy pyramids
built up with newer might |
To me are
nothing novel, nothing strange, |
They are but
dressings Of a former sight: |
Our dates are
brief, and therefore we admire, |
What thou dost
foist upon us that is old, |
And rather make
them born to our desire, |
Than think that
we before have heard them told: |
Thy registers
and thee I both defy, |
Not wond'ring at
the present, nor the past, |
For thy records,
and what we see doth lie, |
Made more or
less by thy continual haste: |
This I do vow
and this shall ever be, |
I will be true
despite thy scythe and thee. |
124
If
my dear love were but the child of state, |
It might for
Fortune's bastard be unfathered, |
As subject to
time's love or to time's hate, |
Weeds among
weeds, or flowers with flowers gathered. |
No it was
builded far from accident, |
It suffers not
in smiling pomp, nor falls |
Under the blow
of thralled discontent, |
Whereto th'
inviting time our fashion calls: |
It fears not
policy that heretic, |
Which works on
leases of short-numbered hours, |
But all alone
stands hugely politic, |
That it nor
grows with heat, nor drowns with showers. |
To this I
witness call the fools of time, |
Which die for
goodness, who have lived for crime. |
125
Were't
aught to me I bore the canopy, |
With my extern
the outward honouring, |
Or laid great
bases for eternity, |
Which proves
more short than waste or ruining? |
Have I not seen
dwellers on form and favour |
Lose all, and
more by paying too much rent |
For compound
sweet; forgoing simple savour, |
Pitiful thrivers
in their gazing spent? |
No, let me be
obsequious in thy heart, |
And take thou my
oblation, poor but free, |
Which is not
mixed with seconds, knows no art, |
But mutual
render, only me for thee. |
Hence, thou
suborned informer, a true soul |
When most
impeached, stands least in thy control. |
126
O
thou my lovely boy who in thy power, |
Dost hold Time's
fickle glass his fickle hour: |
Who hast by
waning grown, and therein show'st, |
Thy lovers
withering, as thy sweet self grow'st. |
If Nature
(sovereign mistress over wrack) |
As thou goest
onwards still will pluck thee back, |
She keeps thee
to this purpose, that her skill |
May time
disgrace, and wretched minutes kill. |
Yet fear her O
thou minion of her pleasure, |
She may detain,
but not still keep her treasure! |
Her audit
(though delayed) answered must be, |
And her
quietus is to render thee. |
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