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Farewell! thou art too dear for my possessing, |
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And like enough
thou know'st thy estimate, |
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The charter of
thy worth gives thee releasing: |
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My bonds in thee
are all determinate. |
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For how do I
hold thee but by thy granting, |
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And for that
riches where is my deserving? |
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The cause of
this fair gift in me is wanting, |
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And so my patent
back again is swerving. |
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Thy self thou
gav'st, thy own worth then not knowing, |
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Or me to whom
thou gav'st it, else mistaking, |
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So thy great
gift upon misprision growing, |
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Comes home
again, on better judgement making. |
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Thus have I
had thee as a dream doth flatter, |
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In sleep a
king, but waking no such matter. |
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When thou shalt be disposed to set me light, |
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And place my
merit in the eye of scorn, |
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Upon thy side,
against my self I'll fight, |
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And prove thee
virtuous, though thou art forsworn: |
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With mine own
weakness being best acquainted, |
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Upon thy part I
can set down a story |
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Of faults
concealed, wherein I am attainted: |
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That thou in
losing me, shalt win much glory: |
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And I by this
will be a gainer too, |
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For bending all
my loving thoughts on thee, |
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The injuries
that to my self I do, |
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Doing thee
vantage, double-vantage me. |
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Such is my
love, to thee I so belong, |
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That for thy
right, my self will bear all wrong. |
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Say that thou didst forsake me for some fault, |
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And I will
comment upon that offence, |
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Speak of my
lameness, and I straight will halt: |
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Against thy
reasons making no defence. |
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Thou canst not
(love) disgrace me half so ill, |
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To set a form
upon desired change, |
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As I'll my self
disgrace, knowing thy will, |
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I will
acquaintance strangle and look strange: |
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Be absent from
thy walks and in my tongue, |
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Thy sweet
beloved name no more shall dwell, |
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Lest I (too much
profane) should do it wronk: |
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And haply of our
old acquaintance tell. |
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For thee,
against my self I'll vow debate, |
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For I must
ne'er love him whom thou dost hate. |
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Then hate me when thou wilt, if ever, now, |
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Now while the
world is bent my deeds to cross, |
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join with the
spite of fortune, make me bow, |
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And do not drop
in for an after-loss: |
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Ah do not, when
my heart hath 'scaped this sorrow, |
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Come in the
rearward of a conquered woe, |
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Give not a windy
night a rainy morrow, |
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To linger out a
purposed overthrow. |
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If thou wilt
leave me, do not leave me last, |
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When other petty
griefs have done their spite, |
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But in the onset
come, so shall I taste |
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At first the
very worst of fortune's might. |
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And other
strains of woe, which now seem woe, |
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Compared with
loss of thee, will not seem so. |
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Some glory in their birth, some in their skill, |
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Some in their
wealth, some in their body's force, |
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Some in their
garments though new-fangled ill: |
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Some in their
hawks and hounds, some in their horse. |
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And every humour
hath his adjunct pleasure, |
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Wherein it finds
a joy above the rest, |
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But these
particulars are not my measure, |
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All these I
better in one general best. |
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Thy love is
better than high birth to me, |
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Richer than
wealth, prouder than garments' costs, |
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Of more delight
than hawks and horses be: |
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And having thee,
of all men's pride I boast. |
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Wretched in
this alone, that thou mayst take, |
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All this away,
and me most wretchcd make. |
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But do thy worst to steal thy self away, |
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For term of life
thou art assured mine, |
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And life no
longer than thy love will stay, |
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For it depends
upon that love of thine. |
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Then need I not
to fear the worst of wrongs, |
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When in the
least of them my life hath end, |
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I see, a better
state to me belongs |
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Than that, which
on thy humour doth depend. |
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Thou canst not
vex me with inconstant mind, |
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Since that my
life on thy revolt doth lie, |
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O what a happy
title do I find, |
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Happy to have
thy love, happy to die! |
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But what's so
blessed-fair that fears no blot? |
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Thou mayst be
false, and yet I know it not. |
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So
shall I live, supposing thou art true, |
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Like a deceived
husband, so love's face, |
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May still seem
love to me, though altered new: |
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Thy looks with
me, thy heart in other place. |
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For there can
live no hatred in thine eye, |
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Therefore in
that I cannot know thy change, |
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In many's looks,
the false heart's history |
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Is writ in moods
and frowns and wrinkles strange. |
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But heaven in
thy creation did decree, |
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That in thy face
sweet love should ever dwell, |
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Whate'er thy
thoughts, or thy heart's workings be, |
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Thy looks should
nothing thence, but sweetness tell. |
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How like Eve's
apple doth thy beauty grow, |
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If thy sweet
virtue answer not thy show. |
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They that have power to hurt, and will do none, |
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That do not do
the thing, they most do show, |
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Who moving
others, are themselves as stone, |
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Unmoved, cold,
and to temptation slow: |
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They rightly do
inherit heaven's graces, |
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And husband
nature's riches from expense, |
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Tibey are the
lords and owners of their faces, |
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Others, but
stewards of their excellence: |
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The summer's
flower is to the summer sweet, |
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Though to it
self, it only live and die, |
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But if that
flower with base infection meet, |
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The basest weed
outbraves his dignity: |
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For sweetest
things turn sourest by their deeds, |
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Lilies that
fester, smell far worse than weeds. |
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How sweet and lovely dost thou make the shame, |
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Which like a
canker in the fragrant rose, |
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Doth spot the
beauty of thy budding name! |
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O in what sweets
dost thou thy sins enclose! |
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That tongue that
tells the story of thy days, |
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(Making
lascivious comments on thy sport) |
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Cannot
dispraise, but in a kind of praise, |
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Naming thy name,
blesses an ill report. |
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O what a mansion
have those vices got, |
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Which for their
habitation chose out thee, |
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Where beauty's
veil doth cover every blot, |
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And all things
turns to fair, that eyes can see! |
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Take heed
(dear heart) of this large privilege, |
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The hardest
knife ill-used doth lose his edge. |
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Some say thy fault is youth, some wantonness, |
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Some say thy
grace is youth and gentle sport, |
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Both grace and
faults are loved of more and less: |
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Thou mak'st
faults graces, that to thee resort: |
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As on the finger
of a throned queen, |
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The basest jewel
will be well esteemed: |
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So are those
errors that in thee are seen, |
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To truths
translated, and for true things deemed. |
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How many lambs
might the stern wolf betray, |
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If like a lamb
he could his looks translate! |
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How many gazers
mightst thou lead away, |
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if thou wouldst
use the strength of all thy state! |
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But do not so,
I love thee in such sort, |
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As thou being
mine, mine is thy good report. |
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How like a winter hath my absence been |
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From thee, the
pleasure of the fleeting year! |
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What freezings
have I felt, what dark days seen! |
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What old
December's bareness everywhere! |
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And yet this
time removed was summer's time, |
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The teeming
autumn big with rich increase, |
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Bearing the
wanton burden of the prime, |
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Like widowed
wombs after their lords' decease: |
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Yet this
abundant issue seemed to me |
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But hope of
orphans, and unfathered fruit, |
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For summer and
his pleasures wait on thee, |
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And thou away,
the very birds are mute. |
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Or if they
sing, 'tis with so dull a cheer, |
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That leaves
look pale, dreading the winter's near. |
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From you have I been absent in the spring, |
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When proud-pied
April (dressed in all his trim) |
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Hath put a
spirit of youth in every thing: |
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That heavy
Saturn laughed and leaped with him. |
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Yet nor the lays
of birds, nor the sweet smell |
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Of different
flowers in odour and in hue, |
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Could make me
any summer's story tell: |
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Or from their
proud lap pluck them where they grew: |
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Nor did I wonder
at the lily's white, |
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Nor praise the
deep vermilion in the rose, |
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They were but
sweet, but figures of delight: |
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Drawn after you,
you pattern of all those. |
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Yet seemed it
winter still, and you away, |
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As with your
shadow I with these did play. |
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The forward violet thus did I chide, |
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Sweet thief,
whence didst thou steal thy sweet that smells, |
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If not from my
love's breath? The purple pride |
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Which on thy
soft check for complexion dwells, |
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In my love's
veins thou hast too grossly dyed. |
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The lily I
condemned for thy hand, |
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And buds of
marjoram had stol'n thy hair, |
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The roses
fearfully on thorns did stand, |
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One blushing
shame, another white despair: |
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A third nor red,
nor white, had stol'n of both, |
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And to his
robbery had annexed thy breath, |
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But for his
theft in pride of all his growth |
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A vengeful
canker eat him up to death. |
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More flowers I
noted, yet I none could see, |
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But sweet, or
colour it had stol'n from thee. |
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Where art thou Muse that
thou forget'st so long, |
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To speak of that
which gives thee all thy might? |
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Spend'st thou
thy fury on some worthless song, |
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Darkening thy
power to lend base subjects light? |
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Return forgetful
Muse, and straight redeem, |
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In gentle
numbers time so idly spent, |
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Sing to the ear
that doth thy lays esteem, |
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And gives thy
pen both skill and argument. |
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Rise resty Muse,
my love's sweet face survey, |
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If time have any
wrinkle graven there, |
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If any, be a
satire to decay, |
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And make time's
spoils despised everywhere. |
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Give my love
fame faster than Time wastes life, |
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So thou
prevent'st his scythe, and crooked knife. |
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O truant Muse what shall
be thy amends, |
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For
thy neglect of truth in beauty dyed? |
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Both truth and beauty on my love depends: |
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So
dost thou too, and therein dignified: |
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Make answer Muse, wilt thou not haply say, |
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'Truth needs no colour with his colour fixed, |
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Beauty no pencil, beauty's truth to lay: |
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But
best is best, if never intermixed'? |
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Because he needs no praise, wilt thou be dumb? |
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Excuse not silence so, for't lies in thee, |
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To
make him much outlive a gilded tomb: |
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And
to be praised of ages yet to be. |
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Then do thy office Muse, I teach thee how, |
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To make him seem long hence, as he shows now. |
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My
love is strengthened though more weak in seeming, |
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I love not less,
though less the show appear, |
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That love is
merchandized, whose rich esteeming, |
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The owner's
tongue doth publish every where. |
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Our love was
new, and then but in the spring, |
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When I was wont
to greet it with my lays, |
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As Philomel in
summer's front doth sing, |
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And stops her
pipe in growth of riper days: |
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Not that the
summer is less pleasant now |
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Than when her
mournful hymns did hush the night, |
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But that wild
music burthens every bough, |
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And sweets grown
common lose their dear delight. |
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Therefore like
her, I sometime hold my tongue: |
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Because I
would not dull you with my song. |
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Alack what poverty my muse
brings forth, |
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That having such
a scope to show her pride, |
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The argument all
bare is of more worth |
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Than when it
hath my added praise beside. |
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O blame me not
if I no more can write! |
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Look in your
glass and there appears a face, |
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That over-goes
my blunt invention quite, |
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Dulling my
lines, and doing me disgrace. |
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Were it not
sinful then striving to mend, |
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To mar the
subject that before was well? |
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For to no other
pass my verses tend, |
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Than of your
graces and your gifts to tell. |
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And more, much
more than in my verse can sit, |
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Your own glass
shows you, when you look in it. |
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To
me fair friend you never can be old, |
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For as you were
when first your eye I eyed, |
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Such seems your
beauty still: three winters cold, |
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Have from the
forests shook three summers' pride, |
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Three beauteous
springs to yellow autumn turned, |
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In process of
the seasons have I seen, |
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Three April
perfumes in three hot Junes burned, |
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Since first I
saw you fresh which yet are green. |
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Ah yet doth
beauty like a dial hand, |
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Steal from his
figure, and no pace perceived, |
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So your sweet
hue, which methinks still doth stand |
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Hath motion, and
mine eye may be deceived. |
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For fear of
which, hear this thou age unbred, |
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Ere you were
born was beauty's summer dead. |
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Let not my love be called idolatry, |
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Nor my beloved
as an idol show, |
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Since all alike
my songs and praises be |
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To one, of one,
still such, and ever so. |
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Kind is my love
to-day, to-morrow kind, |
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Still constant
in a wondrous excellence, |
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Therefore my
verse to constancy confined, |
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One thing
expressing, leaves out difference. |
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Fair, kind, and
true, is all my argument, |
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Fair, kind, and
true, varying to other words, |
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And in this
change is my invention spent, |
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Three themes in
one, which wondrous scope affords. |
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Fair, kind,
and true, have often lived alone. |
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Which three
till now, never kept seat in one. |
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When in the chronicle of wasted time, |
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I see
descriptions of the fairest wights, |
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And beauty
making beautiful old rhyme, |
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In praise of
ladies dead, and lovely knights, |
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Then in the
blazon of sweet beauty's best, |
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Of hand, of
foot, of lip, of eye, of brow, |
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I see their
antique pen would have expressed, |
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Even such a
beauty as you master now. |
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So all their
praises are but prophecies |
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Of this our
time, all you prefiguring, |
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And for they
looked but with divining eyes, |
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They had not
skill enough your worth to sing: |
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For we which
now behold these present days, |
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Have eyes to
wonder, but lack tongues to praise. |
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Not mine own fears, nor the prophetic soul, |
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Of the wide
world, dreaming on things to come, |
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Can yet the
lease of my true love control, |
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Supposed as
forfeit to a confined doom. |
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The mortal moon
hath her eclipse endured, |
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And the sad
augurs mock their own presage, |
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Incertainties
now crown themselves assured, |
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And peace
proclaims olives of endless age. |
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Now with the
drops of this most balmy time, |
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My love looks
fresh, and death to me subscribes, |
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Since spite of
him I'll live in this poor rhyme, |
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While he insults
o'er dull and speechless tribes. |
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And thou in
this shalt find thy monument, |
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When tyrants'
crests and tombs of brass are spent. |
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What's in the brain that ink may character, |
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Which hath not
figured to thee my true spirit, |
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What's new to
speak, what now to register, |
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That may express
my love, or thy dear merit? |
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Nothing sweet
boy, but yet like prayers divine, |
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I must each day
say o'er the very same, |
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Counting no old
thing old, thou mine, I thine, |
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Even as when
first I hallowed thy fair name. |
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So that eternal
love in love's fresh case, |
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Weighs not the
dust and injury of age, |
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Nor gives to
necessary wrinkles place, |
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But makes
antiquity for aye his page, |
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Finding the
first conceit of love there bred, |
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Where time and
outward form would show it dead. |
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O
never say that I was false of heart, |
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Though absence
seemed my flame to qualify, |
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As easy might I
from my self depart, |
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As from my soul
which in thy breast doth lie: |
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That is my home
of love, if I have ranged, |
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Like him that
travels I return again, |
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Just to the
time, not with the time exchanged, |
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So that my self
bring water for my stain, |
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Never believe
though in my nature reigned, |
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All frailties
that besiege all kinds of blood, |
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That it could so
preposterously be stained, |
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To leave for
nothing all thy sum of good: |
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For nothing
this wide universe I call, |
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Save thou my
rose, in it thou art my all. |
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Alas 'tis true, I have gone here and there, |
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And made my self
a motley to the view, |
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Gored mine own
thoughts, sold cheap what is most dear, |
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Made old
offences of affections new. |
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Most true it is,
that I have looked on truth |
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Askance and
strangely: but by all above, |
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These blenches
gave my heart another youth, |
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And worse essays
proved thee my best of love. |
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Now all is done,
have what shall have no end, |
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Mine appetite I
never more will grind |
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On newer proof,
to try an older friend, |
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A god in love,
to whom I am confined. |
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Then give me
welcome, next my heaven the best, |
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Even to thy
pure and most most loving breast. |
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O
for my sake do you with Fortune chide, |
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The guilty
goddess of my harmful deeds, |
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That did not
better for my life provide, |
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Than public
means which public manners breeds. |
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Thence comes it
that my name receives a brand, |
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And almost
thence my nature is subdued |
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To what it works
in, like the dyer's hand: |
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Pity me then,
and wish I were renewed, |
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Whilst like a
willing patient I will drink, |
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Potions of eisel
'gainst my strong infection, |
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No bitterness
that I will bitter think, |
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Nor double
penance to correct correction. |
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Pity me then
dear friend, and I assure ye, |
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Even that your
pity is enough to cure me. |
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Your love and pity doth th' impression fill, |
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Which vulgar
scandal stamped upon my brow, |
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For what care I
who calls me well or ill, |
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So you
o'er-green my bad, my good allow? |
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You are my all
the world, and I must strive, |
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To know my
shames and praises from your tongue, |
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None else to me,
nor I to none alive, |
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That my steeled
sense or changes right or wrong. |
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In so profound
abysm I throw all care |
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Of others'
voices, that my adder's sense, |
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To critic and to
flatterer stopped are: |
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Mark how with my
neglect I do dispense. |
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You are so
strongly in my purpose bred, |
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That all the
world besides methinks are dead. |
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Since I left you, mine eye is in my mind, |
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And that which
governs me to go about, |
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Doth part his
function, and is partly blind, |
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Seems seeing,
but effectually is out: |
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For it no form
delivers to the heart |
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Of bird, of
flower, or shape which it doth latch, |
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Of his quick
objects hath the mind no part, |
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Nor his own
vision holds what it doth catch: |
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For if it see
the rud'st or gentlest sight, |
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The most sweet
favour or deformed'st creature, |
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The mountain, or
the sea, the day, or night: |
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The crow, or
dove, it shapes them to your feature. |
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Incapable of
more, replete with you, |
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My most true
mind thus maketh mine untrue. |
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Or
whether doth my mind being crowned with you |
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Drink up the
monarch's plague this flattery? |
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Or whether shall
I say mine eye saith true, |
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And that your
love taught it this alchemy? |
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To make of
monsters, and things indigest, |
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Such cherubins
as your sweet self resemble, |
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Creating every
bad a perfect best |
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As fast as
objects to his beams assemble: |
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